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Wednesday, March 31, 2004 But honestly I guess I'm content with the options open to me. New York University and Northwestern University seem pretty appealing, and I guess I wouldn't mind much going to either. As always, as it always has been, it's th' monaaay, baby. Went for MAS second round of selection today and it wasn't half bad, a group discussion and yet another psychometric. Those things are driving me crazy, really. And I've never liked being watched by psychologists. On the surface they look like they're listening to you, but beneath it they're analysing to bits every little implication of what you say and how you say it, and even what you're doing with your body language. Every eye-twitch. Every turn of your head. Every expression you make when you're thinking...I'm guessing none of it goes unnoticed. It's somewhat unnerving especially for me, given my propensity for tics that are usually associated with anxiety or nervousness: eye twitching, the tightening of muscles around my mouth, etc. I don't think it's cuz I'm nervous. On a conscious level, at least. Subconsciously I have no idea of course, but at least as far as I'm concerned I'm not a terribly nervous person. So I have no idea why these things tend to act up every few months or so. Mm. Odd. Literature texts in Singapore are so damned expensive. The normal price you pay for a thin paperback with a play in it is at least $25 in Borders. It seems rather exorbitant to me, and it's certainly off-putting. We talk about promoting the arts in Singapore but so long as you keep pricing not just performances but performance texts (scripts, etc) at ludicrously high levels, you're not going to get very far, eh. Well that's my personal ranty thing for today. I think I'll make myself happy by watching Episode 3 of Gormenghast. Woo! Credit to Tris who tracked it down for me and "surprised" me (;P) over lunch with it. *muah* Thanks, baby. :) (Sorry Karin, forgot to warn you to cover your eyes. *grin*) ArtIntern update. It ended on Sunday and it went much better than I could have hoped (which isn't spectacularly anway, but decently enough. Even up to a week before we set up the gallery I was wondering if the show could even take place). We've made a tidy bit of money from it too and I'm richer by about forty to fifty bucks from the sale of reprints and cards. :D Yay it'll fund a few lunches... thanks to all who came down to support us! Of those I know who came, Tris, Tris' Mum and Dad, Karin, JM, GQ, Eggy, Takahan, Shujian, Wenqi, Jesley...your presence was appreciated by all of us there. :) And if any of you still want to purchase reprints, cards, original illustrations, please drop me an email (see the sidebar for my address) to let me know! A3 reprints are going at $15 and they come with an autography thing (whoo wheee), and cards go at $5 apiece and $20 for a pack of 5. I will post up the illustrations on sale hopefully later today or tomorrow, after I finish teaching. Yup, which reminds me I'm back in RGS teaching...one class of sec3 English and 3 of Sec1 Philosophy (again). I had a great time with one of my philosophy classes on Monday, but it scared me how young and how cynical they are already, lambasting the government (rather baselessly, I may add, they had no examples whatsoever to back them up but I was simply mown over in the whole discussion and I couldn't really get a word in to question them closely.) with the air of jaded middle-aged people. I honestly think they're just parrotting what they hear their parents complaining about at home. Not to belittle my girls or anything -- on the contrary they strike me as extremely lively, intellegent and surprisingly well-read young women -- , but I think at the tender age of 12 going on 13 it's tough to already have formed such a hardened view of local politics based on your own reading, experience and deduction. They haven't been through enough for that. So that's it, really. Don't really have a strong impression of my sec3 class, they were rather lethargic, as they tend to be. I just hope they perk up in a bit. The prefect in their class is a total mouse which is disappointing. No influence whatsoever over her class. Undeserving. I heard a bit about her from the other relief teachers while they were still around, because they taught the same class, and they had agreed that she hardly speaks up at all. I intend to shake that out of her entirely. She'll be no leader at this rate. Yay Gormenghast. But I'd better get into something more comfortable than these office clothes first, the weather's been utterly bitchy today. Urgh, humidity! :S Viv wished for the moon @ 1:38 AM Saturday, March 27, 2004 And Karin agrees that I'd be the last to admit that I had sex, and the first to claim to be pregnant. Like, whaaat??? O_O Funny images that girl gets. Viv wished for the moon @ 7:04 PMUpdates on the fly. Made it to NYU, nearly died at the cost per year, US$47000+. Methinks I didn't choose my colleges terribly carefully. :S I mean USC is said to be a great college but in a very rough part of LA. My dad's American colleagues advised me never to leave the campus and stay with a family outside of school during weekends. That can't be too promising. :( In other news, unlike some people who down dozens of tequila shots like thirsty fish I have discovered (perhaps thankfully) a low tolerance for alcohol, especially hard liquor. Had a small shot glass of Bailey's, cream and banana liquor last night at Harry's with Karin and Jan and after nursing about 3/4 of it myself, gave up and handed it to Jan who gleefully downed the rest in one gulp. Man. Brrrwwb. Over and out, time for church... Viv wished for the moon @ 7:03 PM Thursday, March 25, 2004 Okay, gotta admit this is pretty fitting. Or at least it ties in with how I view myself and what people know of me: From http://www.okcupid.com/oktest.I am Deliberate, Brutal, Love, Dreamer. Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss. Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy. These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards. You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing. Mmm...fascinating. Viv wished for the moon @ 10:58 AM Tuesday, March 23, 2004 Now this is funny.SPRING Singapore interview today went well, but I've learnt to be a little distrustful of interviews, they're rather deceptive. Good interview, I have learnt, not necessarily equals happy scholarship. :S Mm. *rubs nose* Is it wrong to see politics as amusing? Cuz that's what I told them was my opinion of the Taiwanese elections. Oh well. It is true, I do find politics amusing. Don't ask me to elaborate, me tired... No news from scholarship boards. Apparently Charmaine already has an interview with DMS scheduled...no news from Mindef over here. Hope I haven't already been nixed, it'll break me poor damaged heart, it will. *sob* I hope for a call soon... On another note, got into Northwestern! :D The acceptance package came in a Fedex van too...I was so impressed, the big truck parked outside the door and the deliveryman who intoned "Are you Vivienne?" like some keeper of fate. And now I have my first ever Fedex envelope!!!! W0000t!!!! :D I'm framing it up for posterity. But I hope the Fedexes keep rollin' in...Columbia...*crosses fingers* Exhibition kicked off with a crowd of 10 today (13 if you include JM, Chiny/GQ and Feather/WN who came to help in the morning...thanks guy and babes!). We're hoping for slight increases as the week wears on... Viv wished for the moon @ 8:18 AM Thursday, March 18, 2004 More art art artiness...my first digital painting, from the cover of Kabuki Volume 4: Skin Deep. Whee for me!!! And I'm so tired now, ho hum...Kabuki Viv wished for the moon @ 1:20 PM It wuz da stress. A nice diversion from slogging on the essays...I had the song playing on Windows Media Player and my Wacom on hand. What can I say? My Sacrifice. Goosh that was fun...but back to work. :( Short Advertisment. Come for the ArtIntern exhibition at MITA headquarters room 01-07, 23rd to 28th March, 9am-8pm to see a collection of works from secondary school and JC students, as well as some of my work!! :D Here's the valuable opportunity to order prints and cards with the artists' works on them too! Support a starving artist today!!! Viv wished for the moon @ 7:58 AM Wednesday, March 17, 2004 Circumventing: Dishonesty. It's been a very long time since I've been entirely, straightforwardly, truthful on blog. I used to have no qualms about being brutally honest, but now I'm a little more careful. It's a double edged sword; I don't want to say I don't enjoy the hits my blog gets, it's nice to know people know about your online schneigans. And I've never been called upon to bare my private soul to the world. But the more I read the more I notice there are some issues I never address anymore. I've become flippant, I've chronicled virtually nothing; at best, I'm obscure. Perhaps I have to be. Most of the people I love read this blog, and sometimes it is they whom I have the most issues with. I'm not pinpointing any one person or event in particular (and no, baby, I'm really not referring to anything specific, in case you're worrying this is another vague barb in your direction) , I'm just saying that sometimes I don't write for fear of hurting, or sending the wrong messages, to those I care about. But it does no good to delicately trot around some of the still-painful issues in my life: I have to come to terms with them, and this is one outlet through which I can do so.But not now. I'm not ready to say these things. I'll wait. ** In other news: I got the part of Kay Sadler in the Stage Club's production of Brian Clarke's Whose Life is it Anyway?. I know it was made into a movie with Richard Dreyfuss in the 1980s and it was supposed to be good, but that's about it. Kay is a young nurse, and the nurse jibes have already been trickling in...argh. It doesn't help that for the photoshoot this Friday I have to wear the only nurse outfit the Stage Club has in its otherwise vast arsenal of costumery; this one in particular was made for *ahem* adult theatre. So apparently it has a nonexistent skirt, and the cast is very amused at the prospect. Frankly while I'm vaguely mortified at the thought I'm kinda looking forward to it, just to see if I can pull of that look. It'll be another fetishistic tool of arousal to add to the list which currently comprises of "teacher" and "student". I have a feeling I'll probably end up wearing pants -- or at least good stockings (no fishnets, so stop drooling) -- underneath that little number. I've been assured by the director that I'll be placed behind the hospital bed so that only my top half is visible, but I think I'm not going to take any chances. Just in case. Whee, this could be the start of something grand. I could use this valuable opportunity to kickstart my career as an international porn star! Viv wished for the moon @ 3:35 AM Tuesday, March 16, 2004 More bangs for your buck on the bureaucratic whore. -- David Mack, ScarabSorry, had to get it out of my system...for some reason the phrase has stuck fast for today. Erk! Well it sounds good don't it? *Yawns* Hurrah, DMS complete, but toiling through SIA...it's a tough cookie, 6 little mini-essays. Sneaky thing...and I'm so tired I can't think of what to bloody write...:( Viv wished for the moon @ 11:43 AM Monday, March 15, 2004 University of Southern California. Hurrah, I got my first big package in the mail! I've been accepted into USC! I'm not saying yes just yet tho, waiting for news of my other applications to come in. It was certainly heartening though, as I read the materials that came in. My Columbia Interviewer was right, you feel wonderful to be accepted into an American college, because the team in the topsy turvy system that is university admissions actually liked you; read your application and decided that they celebrated your uniqueness and valued it enough to give you a place. It felt good. :)And all praise be to Him; I thank You for your guidance thus far, and continue to look to it even as I decide on my schools, my scholarships. Show me Your way always. Viv wished for the moon @ 12:06 PM Sunday, March 14, 2004 Sympathy::The Goo-Goo Dolls Stranger than your sympathy, And this is my apology I'm killing myself from the inside out, And all my fears have pushed you out And I wished for things that I don't need All I wanted And what I chase won't set me free It's all I wanted And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees Oh yeah, everything's all wrong, yeah Everything's all wrong, yeah Where the hell did I think I was? Stranger than your sympathy I take these things so I don't feel I'm killing myself from the inside out, And now my head's been filled with doubt And it's hard to lead the life you choose, All I wanted When all your lucks run out on you All I wanted And you can't see when all your dreams are coming true Oh yeah, it's easy to forget, yeah And you choke on the regrets, yeah Who the hell did I think I was? And stranger than your sympathy, And all these thoughts you stole from me And I'm not sure where I belong Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong And I wasn't all the things I tried to make believe I was And I wouldn't be the one To kneel before the dreams I wanted And all the talk, And all the lies Were all the empty things disguised as me Yeah Stranger than your sympathy Stranger than your sympathy Viv wished for the moon @ 3:52 AM Thursday, March 11, 2004 Don't you dare trot out the deus ex machina. Blah my typing speed is atrocious now...typos abound and I'm down to using contractions and netspeak to make up for lost speed. Netspeak is upsetting indeed.Went back to RGS today to give the teacher some marking I completed, and found a card for me in my locker, from my old class 205. What more can I say? It really made my day, it did...all the girls wrote in it and signed. I know it was no elaborate affair, no big party or sweet treats, but this was more than enough. It wasn't a paycheck; it was tons better. :) Shall miss those girls, I hope I have the chance to go back again. :) Baaaaahgal;ksjdf~!!!!!! Damn slow typo-ridden typing speed!!! What the hell happened to me??? And I just discovered the meaning of deus ex machina. I am so proud of myself...and it has become my phrase of the week! Now to find somewhere to display it prominently. Oh in other news I wanna change blog layout again...but I have another blue-y one in mind. I wish I could do a nice one for myself, but I'm electronically inept, alas...and my spelling's going down the toilet too. My skills at a keyboard are alarming me greatly. Defence Merit Scholarship essay...SIA essays...CAAS...tian ah! Essays...my old bane...rgksdfkjlahrjk... And one more time, deus ex machina! :D Viv wished for the moon @ 12:15 AM Tuesday, March 09, 2004 Huzzahs for me and Galen, we're on the school's website!! Here!!In other news my legs are still tingling from the new naturopathic hair removal formula...it's this really goopy green stuff that you apply on your leg, and then place a piece of specially provided cloth on that area and rip it off. Kinda like sticking masking tape all over your legs. Fair enough, it's pretty effective but kinda tedious, and sometimes you rip and the hair doesn't come off along with it. OUCH!!!! >_< The woman's quest for beauty is rarely sensible, indeed. Viv wished for the moon @ 5:49 AM Friday, March 05, 2004 And those of you who listened to Capital radio 95.8 at 5.06 and 11.14pm ( not sure about the latter, because thought it was 11 40 and rushed home before then, only to discover that I was too late to hear the broadcast :( ) yesterday would have heard my mangled Mandarin on the airwaves; I had a telephone interview with them yesterday morning about my drama and art involvement, as part of their post A-level results special on students who do more than study (The little contradiction in that is that activities only matter after you've gotten the good grades -- if you didn't do well what would be the point in featuring you even if you did a million and one things outside of school? I mean have you ever read such articles before? It's always "Straight-A student has time to make dentures for the elderly" etc.). Good experience it was, feedback from Tris and my mummy who listened to it was that I sounded cute, and my Chinese wasn't half as bad as the ACJC top student's. Only wish I could have caught it myself, but there we go. Whee, my 15 minutes of fame gone before I could even review them... Viv wished for the moon @ 7:35 PMOK just a quick rundown of the mass destruction: Geography: A English Lit: A Maths: A Econs: C (blast it, Mr Barnard thinks I did it on purpose...:S) S-Geog: Distinction S-Lit: Merit GP: A1 A satisfying set of grades, except for the bleeding econs mark. :( But I do hope it's enough to get me a foot in the doors I need to go through...I just thank Him for all the work that went into the exam and the results it reaped, and pray for His guidance in the weeks ahead. Show me what You want to will through me. Viv wished for the moon @ 7:31 PM Wednesday, March 03, 2004 I have met the face of doom, and it is called the release of the A-levels. D-day is tomorrow!!! AAAggggHHh! *runs around in little circles* Viv wished for the moon @ 9:47 PMTuesday, March 02, 2004 The more I sleep the sleepier I end up in the day. Becky, you and I need sleep therapy man! *slumps over in stupour*Highly interesting how my plans for the day dissolve into me staring like a zombie at the computer for hours on end. Terrible, terrible. Arrrghh...and I have Sunday School to plan for as well!!! :S Viv wished for the moon @ 10:06 PM Monday, March 01, 2004 No news is good news.Ok I just checked the papers and there's no mention of when the results are coming out, so I'm safe. For now. Of course I may go back to the papers to find that I missed the announcement, tucked away on the 30th page or something.Getting goosebumps listening to the Goo-Goo Dolls, as I usually do. Nothing like a great guitar riff to get me high. *closes eyes* I've been longing to do a piece of art based on their songs but somehow it's tough. Oh I did the black balloon piece but other than that...it just cries out for art to be drawn on it but I can't find the right way to express the image in my head. It's always a girl, loving, beautiful, tawdry and sad, who's lost a part of her innocence she only wants to reclaim, and with his arms around her, the faceless, loving man who can never own her soul. This probably sounds pretty yucky, but when you're listening to Name at the same time, it all tends to work out quite satisfactorily. Viv wished for the moon @ 8:13 PM |
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Head in the clouds Vivienne Wong was hatched on the 12th of June 1985 and hails from Singapore, which contrary to popular belief, is not a colony of Japan. Formerly of Raffles Girls' Primary and Secondary School and then of Hwa Chong Junior College's Humanities Scheme, she is currently readjusting herself to the finer points of academia (read: she hasn't studied in ages and is really overworked) in her 2nd year at Nanyang Technological University Communication Studies. However she is currently spending the semester on the snowy plains of Ithaca College, New York, and lovin' it. Otherwise, she likes talking about herself in the third person, drawing, acting, comics, watching cartoons, eating Italian food, light rock, Irish music, Broadway tunes, acoustic guitar riffs, drawing some more and singing loudly in the bathroom. On the other hand, she dislikes unmotivated people, afternoon naps, the conventional, and people who are either smelly or wearing clothes too tight for them so that they end up bulging. Contactable here.
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